mOi LittLe mOrNinG tHoTs...

wAkE uP tIs MoRnInG...
n iT sUddEnLy sTrUcK mOi...
wAT hVe i BeeN dOiNg aLL tIs WHiLe??
wAt hVe i AcHiEvE iN LiFe??
kInDa pIsSeD oFF wEn i rEALiSe...
nOtHiNg!!
bAsIcaLLy fRm a NoRmAL hUmAn pT oF vIeW...
tHeRe iS nOtHiNG tAT i HvE aChIeVE nOr iS tHeRe aNytHiNg iN LiFe tAT iM pRoUd oF...
iTz pReTTy sTrANgE fOr aNyOnE tO sAy tHaT hE/ShE hAs aCComPiSh nOtHiNg iN LiFe...
tHoUgH iM nOt TaT oLd bUt nOr aM i TaT yOuNg...
bUt sUmhOw oR rAtHeR i FeEL tAT tHerEs dEfInaTeLy sUmThiNg iN LiFe tAT oNe sHlD bE pRoUd oF aCcOmPLiShIng iT dEsPitE dE aGe ...
bUt y ThERe aReNt aNyThIng wHiCh i CaN pRoUdLy sAy i hVe aCcOmPLisH?!?
i WoNdEr...
aM i sUcH aN oDD baLL??
oR aM i JuZ a LoSeR iN LiFe??
cOmE tO tHiNk AbT iT...
iVe GoT nO fReNs...
HaTe tO aDmIt iT...
aM i ReaLi tAT hArd To gEt aLonG??
oR aM i JuZ a PesT??
i pOnDeR...
WaT hVe gOnE sO wRoNg iN mY LiFe??
oR Am a ReALi sUcH a ReTaRd fOr nOt rEALiSiNg TaT eVeRyThInG HvE gOnE wRoNg aLL tHeSE wHiLe...
iT rEaLi sO wEirD tO rEaLiSe tAt i aM sO aBnOrMaL...
wAT rEaLI pUzzLe Mi Is...
mAnY pPLe r LiViNg iN tHeIr peRfEct LiTTLe LiFe...
sUrrOuNdEd bY pPLe WhoM LoVe n CaRe fOr tHeM...
bUt y CaNt i jUz bE LiKe tHeM...
i yEaRn tO bE oNe sImPLy gEr jUz LiKe aNy oThEr gErS...
cAnT LiFe gEt aNy MOrE cRueL tO Mi??
KaRmA??
iS iT dE rEaSoN??
LoLx...
wAt gOeS rOuNd cUmS rOunD...
pErHaPs iM rEaLI sUcH a SuCkEr iN LiFe...
n NoW iM eNjOyiNg dE bIttER fRuIt oF LiFe tAt i HvE pLaNtEd iN MY LaSt LiFe oR tIs LiFe??
bUt i DuN LiKe dE tAsTe oF dE bIttEr fRuIt...
iN fACt i dReAd dE tAsTe...
nO wOrDS caN qUiTe dEsCrIbLe dE eMpTinEsS iNsIdE I feLt @ tiS bEri MmT...
oR rAtHer sHlD i PuT iT...
dE eMptInEss tAt iS cOnStaNtLy sUrrOnDiNg Mi...
fEaR...
oNe DaE i LL bE dEvOuR cOmPLeTeLy bY dE eMpTinEss...
n WaT LL bE LeFt oF mI iS jUz a hOllOw seLf...
iRoNiCaLLY wAts tHeRe tO fEaR??
wEn dE eMpTiNesS hVe aLReADi dEvOuR mI...
tHeREs nOtHiNg LeFt iN mI...
jUz a hALLoW sELf waLkinG oN dE sUrFaCe oF dE eArtH...
rAtHer dEPReSsInG cUm tO tHiNk AbT iT...
bUt wAt mOrE cAn i sAy...
LifE iS dEfInaTeLy nOt a BeD oF rOseS fOr Mi...
gLAd i sTiLL gOT sPirItUaL cOmForT tO faLL bAck tO...
gUeSs tAts dE bEsT tHiNg tAT eVeR hAppEn tO mI iS tAt...
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